a GOD moment

So I really need to just share something with you guys. I know it's personal, but--wow--I really want to share it. Plus, I want to keep record of it so if I forget, I can look back on it.

Tonight is one of those times when God has spoken to me. I am usually hesitant to say that God spoke to me because I want to make sure it was God and not just me. So many people go around saying "God told me this" and "God told me that."

But this time, I'm not going to be hesitant--God spoke to me tonight. Yeah, there was a voice, but it wasn't God's. I know you must be completely confused now. Let me explain.

Today, I was introduced to a used bookstore (that I will, no doubt, be returning to soon). I decided to buy two CD's. One of them was Brandon Heath's Don't Get Comfortable. It's an older CD, but whatever.

So I put Don't Get Comfortable in my CD player, put my headphones in and started getting ready for bed tonight. I put the player on random and then kept pushing next until I got to a song I knew (didn't want to learn new songs tonight). It went to song #3 (actually called Don't Get Comfortable, one I wasn't familiar with) and then I pushed next and then a little bit later, it went back to #3. So I went to push next again but then I thought, well, maybe I should listen to this. And so I listened.

Another thing you should know, is that I have been having really intense battles recently, mentally, spiritually, etc. I have been battling doubts and so many conflicting thoughts about life and God and love and how it all goes together and applies to me. But I have also been getting great encouragement through fellow believers and books I have been reading. One book in particular is Dug Down Deep by Joshua Harris (go out, buy this book, and read it).

Anyways, so here are the lyrics to the song that God used to speak to me tonight.


BRANDON HEATH LYRICS – DON’T GET COMFORTABLE

Na na na na na na na na nanaaah
Na na na na na na na na nanaaah

Comfortable, don’t get comfortable.
I am gonna’ move this mountain
then I’m gonna move you in.

Yesterday, this is not yesterday.
You were standing on my shoulders; now you’re standing on the edge.
You’ve been looking for a sign all this time.

I am gonna show you what I mean
I am gonna love like you’ve never seen
You are gonna live like you used to dream
This is your new song

So afraid but you don’t have to be afraid
Even if you make mistakes
You know that I’ll remain
You’ve been looking for a sign all
this time.
If you seek you’ll find me every time.

So I am gonna show you what I mean
I am gonna love like you’ve never seen
You are gonna live like you used to dream
This is your new song

Na na na na na na na na nanaaah
Na na na na na na na na nanaaah

Can you feel the call of love?
Is it moving you to be a
child of God of love?
Is it reaching you?
It’s everywhere the call of
love.

I just want to show you what I mean
I just want to love like you’ve never seen
Do you want to live like you used to dream?
Then I’ve got a song for you

Coz I am gonna show you what I mean
I am gonna love like you’ve never seen
You are gonna live like you used to dream
This is your new song

Na na na na na na na na nanaah

You’ve got a new song

Na na na na na na na na nanaa

This song addressed several of the issues I've been having. It was miraculous how much it covered, really.

GOD IS SO GOOD

And, you know, just the fact that I've been battling so much and wanting to pursue God so much, it just...I just feel like this isn't just an accident. I'm going to make it through this and I'm going to be a stronger believer than I ever have been. I am going to do great things for God. (I don't say this to brag on myself, but to praise the God who is doing these things in me.) God is amazing and He can accomplish anything--even in me.

I'm going to print the lyrics out onto one or more of the binders I'll be using this semester so I don't forget this moment.

Yeah, God spoke to me tonight. This song was "the sign" that I've been hoping for--I just didn't think it would come in this form. The recent intensifying of my longing to want God and do His will is "the call of love" for me.

OH, GOD IS SO GOOD!

Missing Pages by Seventh Day Slumber

I think at least the chorus of this song goes perfectly with a certain character in my Lexicon story [yes, I'm still working on that]. Her name is Damien and she's a cutter. Along with the lyrics of this song, I've included a couple pictures that make me think of Damien.

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On the outside all we see is clay that hides the perfect lie
But no one really knows the pain inside
I understand how much it hurts to be the one who’s never seen
Missing pages in a magazine

No one knows you anymore
You’re lost inside the walls you’ve built
No one knows you anymore
A prison deep within your soul
There is One who sees it all
He’ll give you life you’ve never dreamed
He can see the pain underneath your skin

It’s hard to see you fading
Nothing that I do can bring you back
I pray to God that you don’t fade away
Your addiction is a symptom of a lost and dying soul
Without Jesus there’s no hope at all

No one knows you anymore
You’re lost inside the walls you’ve built
No one knows you anymore
A prison deep within your soul
There is One who sees it all
He’ll give you life you’ve never dreamed
He can see the pain underneath your skin

There’s so much more this is not the end
It’s all in your hands don’t throw it away
A beautiful life with so much to give
The image of God underneath your skin

No one knows you anymore
You’re lost inside the walls you’ve built
No one knows you anymore
A prison deep within your soul
There is One who sees it all
He’ll give you life you’ve never dreamed
He can see the pain underneath your skin

Beauty of God underneath your skin
Beauty of God underneath your skin
Beauty of God underneath your skin

Whatever you're doing [something heavenly] by Sanctus Real

I love this song--I think I've added it to the playist [see the side of this blog].

Also, I have a new poll--please vote! [Also on the right hand side.]

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

(Chorus)

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out

I think this song and the icon below just go together...

Lyrics to "War Inside" by Todd Agnew

Here's the lyrics to "War Inside" by Todd Agnew from his album "Better Questions. I got the lyrics from here.

Do you feel the tension, do you?
Do you feel the grind?
Do you see the battle 'tween this
Flesh and soul of mine?

'Cause there's a war inside of me
Between who I want to be
And who I am

I do what I don't want to do
And don't do what I mean
I end up chasing all my nightmares
abandoning my dreams

Who I am is not who I want to be
Shackled like a slave when I know that I'm free
Wrong and right, truth and lie, death versus life
Everything in me is choosing sides
And the showdown begins

Do you feel the tension?

"Dead Man [Carry Me]" by Jars of Clay

I love this song! This video is just a picture witht the song playing but I couldn't find the song to put on my playlist so this will have to do.

I love this song!!! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!



Here are the lyrics to the song. I got them here.

January One, I got a lot of things on my mind
I'm looking at my body through a new spy satellite
I try to lift a finger but I don't think I can make a call
So tell me if I move 'cause I don't feel anything at all

So carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

I woke up from a dream about an empty funeral
But it's better than a party full of people I don't really know
Well, they've got hearts to break and burn, dirty hands to feel the earth
There's something in my veins but I can't seem to make it work
Won't work

So carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

Can you find a beat?
Inside of me?
Any pulse, getting worse
Any pulse, getting worse
Inside of me
In front of me

Carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

Carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

"Hallelujah" video by Krystal Meyers

Below are the lyrics to the song

I got the lyrics from here.

Close my eyes
Falling on my knees
The hope that’s inside
An overwhelming peace

As time’s slowing down
Your soft spoken words
On my heart left a stain
Though no one’s around
And everything’s broken
Your beauty remains
And I realize the reason You came

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Shedding a tear
The taste becomes stale
‘Cause this is why I’m here
The scar of a nail

Heaven has the pleasure of having You here
Nothing can measure the love that You share
Angels sing welcome home
Welcome home

And this is what I’ll sing for You
And this is what I’ll sing for You
Oh

"Sweet Revenge" by Barlow Girl

Did you see that I was hurt?
Did you know that you had left me crying there?

Now I'm holding all you words close till you feel this pain too
But you live on so unaware
While I thought somehow this hate would heal me
But this hate is never ending and it's only killing me
Oh sweet revenge you've lied again
I find I can't get free till I release this vengeance that I seek
Forgive you the only thing I want to live I'm ready to be free
Maybe you've been wounded too
Maybe all this is your self protection
All the hurts you thought were hidden
Are the one now hurting me
So who will make the pattern end?
I find I can't get free till I release this vengeance that I seek
Forgive you, the only thing I want to live I'm ready to
Break these chains
Won't see this through
'Cause setting you free means my freedom too
I find I can't get free till I release this vengeance that I seek
Forgive you the only thing I want to live I'm ready to be free

An Amazing Song

Here is a song on a CD I received for Christmas that has sparked my imagination. I can just see this in a movie...


I am a thief, I am a murderer
Walking up this lonely hill
What have I done? I don't remember
No one knows just how I feel
and I know that my time is coming soon.
It's been so long. Oh, such a long time
Since I've lived with peace and rest
Now I am here, my destination
guess things work for the best
and I know that my time is coming soon
Who is this man? This man beside me



They call the King of the Jews
They don't believe that He's the Messiah
But, somehow I know it's true.
And they laugh at Him in mockery,
and beat Him till he bleeds
They nail Him to the rugged cross,
and raise Him, they raise Him up next to me
My time has come, I'm slowly fading
I deserve what I receive



Jesus when You are in Your kingdom
Could You please remember me
and He looks at me still holding on
the tears fall from His eyes
He says I tell the truth
Today, you will live with Me in paradise
and I know that my time is coming soon
and I know paradise is coming soon.



It's a very wrenching[?] song. I can see the movie as either the thief hanging from the cross with the rest of his life as a flashback or just going through his life until the end. Anyways...

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edit: this song is called "Thief" by Third Day, just so you know

If We Are the Body...

I love this song. I listened to it some weeks ago and it reminded me of the story I'm writing [Lexicon], specifically one of the main characters--Nikky. She's so selfish/self-absorbed that she doesn't notice or really care about those around her--even her "best friend". She doesn't notice or care enough to try to help those around her.

I'm sure most of us--if not all--are like Nikky to a certain extent and, yes, I'm including myself. I mean, sometimes [or many times] we just get so wrapped up in what's going on in our little bubble and how we get from point A to point B without thinking or even looking at the people around us. I want to work on this more myself. If you were to stop and say ONE kind word to ONE person, you could make that person's entire day.

You know, I've kind of wondered, if someone were considering suicide and you were to take the time to say something kind to them--could you possibly stop them from leaping off a building or slitting their wrists without realizing it? I just wonder like that sometimes...

So...here are the lyrics to "if we are the body" by Casting Crowns.

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It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better out on the road

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ

Chorus (2x)
If we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way

Lyrics to "Imperfection" by Skillet

I LOVE this song--the feel, the sound, the lyrics, everything. Do you ever feel like this? I have this song up on the playlist to the side.

You're worth so much
It'll never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You're wanting to be
You're wanting to be

Tears falling down again
Tears falling down

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

You mean so much
That heaven would touch
The face of humankind for you
How special you are
Revel in your day
You're fearfully and wonderfully made
You're wonderfully made

Tears falling down again
Come let the healing begin

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons, skeletons

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

Won't you believe, yeah
Won't you believe, yeah
All the things I see in you

You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Drowning in imperfection

"In the Light" DCTalk lyrics

I keep trying to find a life
On my own apart from you
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do

(Tell me) what's going on inside of me
I despise my own behavior
(This only) serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

(CHORUS)
I wanna be in the Light
as You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars
in the Heavens
Oh, Lord be my light
and be my Salvation
'cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light

This disease of self runs through my blood (through my blood)
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
to bring this sickness under control

Tell me what's going on inside of me
(Whats going on)
I despise my own behavior
(Despise my own behavior)
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

I wanna be in the Light
as You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars
in the Heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light
and be my Salvation
'cause all I want is to be in the Light (yeah)
All I want is to be in the Light

(BRIDGE)
Honesty becomes me
[There's nothing left to lose]
The secrets that did run me
[Your presence have defused]
Pride has no position
[As riches have no worth]
The fame that once did cover me
[Has been sentenced to this Earth]
Has been sentenced to this Earth

Tell me what's going on inside of me
(Whats going on)
I despise my own behavior
(Despise my own behavior)
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

I wanna be in the Light
as You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars
in the Heavens
Oh, Lord be my light
and be my Salvation
'cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want to be is in the Light (3x)

[There's no other place I want to be]
[No other place that I can see]
[A place to be that's just right]
[Someday I'm gonna be in the Light]
[You are in the Light]
[That's where I need to be]
[That's right where I need to be]