Ruined!

No, I'm not saying I'm ruined.

I wanted to talk to you about things that have been ruined for you [and me].

I mean...like say you know someone named Sam. Sam is a perfectly good name but what if the person whose name is Sam is someone you grow to despise? Now, you might not like the name Sam because when you think "Sam" it's not just a word anymore, it's an image--a bad image.

That's what I mean. There are a couple names that are okay names that I might have considered liking and using in stories or using to name my children but now I probably wouldn't [unless it's a bad character ;) ]. All because that PERSON that I didn't/don't like has that name!

It seems kind of silly but it's true!

For me, it's not just names, it's songs or icons or whatever that makes me think of a certain person. Now, when I hear/see them, I don't like them anymore.

Am I the only one like this?

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On a different note...

Last night I dreamed I was in the top 4 on American Idol. I was friends with Jason Castro [interesting...] and the other two people were these girls Nichole and Brooklyn that I know from the girls group at my church. It was...quite odd.

We were about to go on the elimination show. I had longer hair [maybe mid-neck] and the chunks of hair around my face were bleached white. I was talking to Jason about getting them dyed red like Gina Glocksen's. I was very excited [giddy, in fact] about going on T.V. [If you know me, you've probably seen me in "giddy" mode.] Even though we were all in the final 4, before the show we were sitting in the audience. Then [or before that--I'm not sure] I was wearing a black dress [weird that I remember that, huh?] and walking on the floor in front of the stage and telling Jason I should have worn my sneakers instead of hose and heels because that would be cool. ???

Anyways, it was a strange dream...